Happy Mothers Day to any mother reading my blog. You are truly amazing.
This morning I had a trio of waffles. One with jelly, one with honey and one with peanut butter. I also had a mug of Celestial breakfast tea with milk.
I feel a little bit better about my eating and body since I last posted. I love how every day is a new day. Allowing myself to leave things in the past and move forward is a really nice thing.
I’m starting to think that my body image issues and binging practices wont just go away after a few weeks of “normal” eating. I was thinking that after a month or so of just eating what I wanted when I wanted, trying to listen to my body for when it’s hungry and really making sure I don’t feel guilty after eating I could go back to a more structured eating plan. Where I could get back to healthier eating. I think my first week and a half of really positive results gave me a false timeline.
One of the best things about my attempts to get back to normal eating is that I don’t think about food all the time. Well, every day is different. Some days are better than others. But I realized that I was spending so much brain power thinking about food all the time. I was thinking about food because I couldn’t have it, I wanted it, I felt guilty about what I’d eaten, or I was planning about the next meal. It really was exhausting.
I have decided to try adding working out back into my life. I’m hoping that it will help me feel more positive than I do without it. Being an ex-athlete I’m usually not as happy when I’m not working out. But in the past working out only triggers my body image issues and eating tendencies.
I downloaded the Couch to 5K app for my iPhone so I want to start doing that. And I’ll probably keep on doing the circuit training I was doing a month or so ago. Because I’m heavier my ankle really doesn’t do to well running, hopefully it’s healed a little more and will be able to handle it this time.
Today for Mother’s Day my entire family is going to church with my mom then we’re going to my Grandma’s house for some sandwiches this afternoon.