Last night I had too much fruit and oats before I went to bed. Both are carbs, and both shouldn't be eaten past noon. Whoooops.
However, I'm not going to let it get me down. My online nutrition program supposedly allows for 2 "cheats" a week, but it's never been specified what exactly a "cheat" is. I don't really use my "cheats." I don't use the cheats for a few reasons:
1. If I have 1 cheat, I want 100 cheats.
2. I figure if I don't have a cheat, I'll be ready sooner.
3. If I don't use my cheats for planned cheats, I can use my cheats for WHOOPS cheats.
Well, I'm going to categorize this as a cheat, option 3.
I follow my nutrition 99% of the time very closely, so upping carbs once a week when I'm not supposed to is not the end of the world.
I wasn't even hungry, but I was tired, and when I'm tired, I make poor decisions.
This morning I came close to making a bad decision. I was tired, lethargic, likely because I had too many carbs before I went to bed, and I went to bed too late. I sat at my desk, feeling that sugar hangover, and contemplated hitting up the candy machine for some Oreos (they're vegan-friendly). (See, I had 1 cheat, now I want to continue with the cheat).
I thought about it, and I felt like it was going to happen. Then I took a few deep breaths and decided against it.
Sometimes these struggles come back to haunt. All I can do, is do the very best that I can. I know some people can't go to a bar without having an alcoholic beverage; they can't fight that urge. For me, that urge is non-existent, I couldn't care less about alcoholic drinks. But my urge is the occasional temptation to sabotage myself.
I don't know where the urges stem from, but my best guess is that it's biological. It's in my best evolutionary interest to gobble up every carb, fat, and protein that I can get my hands on. And in the caveman days, that would suit me well, and suit my fellow humans well. But our bodies have not evolved to have an unlimited supply of calories around us.
So, our minds have to adjust.... or at least mine does. Mine definitely has over the past few months, but it is certainly not perfect.
