How many times have you asked yourself, “My God, how much more can I take?” Sometimes I do that, sometimes I wonder how much more, but inevitably it is more and it just keeps comin.
It seems like since the economy went down the crapper in 2008 it’s been one damn thing after another. Financial issues running rampant and the string of bills to pay could stretch to the moon and back. Or at least to the end of my driveway. Two kids in college, one more preparing to go in the fall, utility bills, house payment, groceries…. you get the idea as I’m sure you are living it too. The last couple months I’ve had a lot of ups and downs with a tenant of ours who rents an apartment we have (one that is killing us financially as it is and has been on the market nearly 4 years). We bought it to fix it up and flip it and well, that didn’t pan out. Joke was on us and now we’re fighting even harder to stay afloat. Long story short “first she’s staying and will try and catch up”, now she’s leaving. That little announcement was made as I pulled the blue shut off notice for water off the apartment door today… a bill in my name but that she pays (per her lease) which now amounts to $2700. Stupid me.
So what did I do? I went home, turned on the radio and danced in the garage while I sang in my ungodly off pitch singing voice. Nope, I haven’t lost it. I promise. There’s nothing I can do about the circumstances. What is done with is done with and now I must deal with what’s on my plate today. Tomorrow I’ll deal with tomorrow and so on. What else can I do? Nothing.
I AM going to pull out of this. I’ll dodge every single thing thrown at me with the little grace and coordination I do have. I am SO looking forward to the day when I can look back on this and have a good laugh. Oh wait… I actually DID that today! While sometimes it seems like things are finally turning around, there are those days when you take 2 steps backward. What else can you do but smile and move forward? Otherwise you are just worrying about something that you are not equipped to handle at that point in time. The whole idea of not dwelling on it allows me to focus my attention onto something better and then the solutions will come to me once I have a clear head.
So if you are going through hard times, know that you are totally not alone. I am here with you. And I will assure you that things will get better… just put on a smile and move forward… because backwards sucks and is not a place you want to visit again. (((hugs)))
Sunshine and smiles,
Sheila
