Mary knows my weight
My doctor knows my weight
My mother knows my weight
And one of my friends knows my weight
That is it
Weight is a very personal thing
Sharing that number is difficult for me
I worry what people will think
I worry that I will be judged
I worry that I will be compared to others
But because I'm trying so hard no to let this number define me
I thought I would share it with you in an effort to make it less of a secret
I know my ED thrives on secrets
When I went in to treatment last year I was 42kg
When I left treatment I was slightly less
My weight then dropped to 40 kg after I came home
This is not the lowest that my weight has ever been
When I was younger my weight was consistently very low for a long time
Around 34kg
But as I have gotten older, it becomes so much harder to lose weight
In the past two months I have gained about 8kg
I've gained a kg a week
Which leaves me at 48 kg
42kg
45kg
48kg
Can you notice much of a difference?
